Halloween, debriefed.

What I am most thankful for this Halloween (I know, not yet the season of Thanksgiving but really, something we should be practicing all of the time) is that I didn't get so caught up in the perfection of the food and decor and trying to do everything myself that I actually really got to hang out with my kids and friends and have fun.  I hate it when I get so attached to a preconception that I can't just let things unfold in their own organic way.  My children have given me that gift, through parenting, for sure.  I find that the less is more approach for holidays works quite well.   Oh, and delegating and asking for help--something I would have NEVER thought of doing not so very long ago--go a very long way toward maintaining one's sanity. 

We had the fourth of what has become an annual tradition on Halloween night--post trick or treating family fun at our house.  We provided the Ghoul-ash (sigh) and spiced pumpkin soup, friends pitched in pot luck style and brought loads of "grow food" in a vain attempt at a protein versus sugar counter-insurgency, as well as some fun and decadent treats to share.  We had a game of a spoon race with these really oogie gummy eyeballs (a-la egg races).  We had a wrap-a-mummy craft with popsicle sticks, gauze, glue and a marker, as well as candle making with sheets of beeswax to wrap around a string (kit purchased from Magic Cabin).  Then there was the highlight for the children, the haunted closet.  We hung black sheets all around and dangled things down.   It's very easy to create a spooky environment based on suggestion and possibility--it let's the imagination fill in the blanks and can create dramatic tension.  We had some ghosts and bats and ghoulie things but the faces were cartoon-ish;  without the realism they seem not so scary and a bit softer.  We borrowed a skeleton from work and dressed him up as a pirate.  There was a bucket with some dry ice steaming away and a strobe light.  There was also a large pot with spaghetti, gummy worms and eyeballs.  Eeew.  Major tactile grossness.  A little background of scary (but not disgusting or horrific) sounds from the $3 disc from Wal Mart on repeat in the CD player, and we had some serious ambiance.  What allowed for the precise level of terror based on the age/temperament of the child were the 2 dads that participated in the fun.  My husband and a dear friend/super good sport who donned some furry gloves and made noises while reaching out from behind a black sheet, sacrificed their own social needs and agenda to provide a true thrill for the willing guests.

What I also enjoyed immensely was the creativity of the costumes--all home made and hilarious, gorgeous, kooky, and fun;  an opportunity for the alter ego to have it's day in the sun.  We had 3 skunks--?, one with Elvis hair.  We had Goldilocks and the 3 bears in costumes made from brown towels and some faux fur--Mom and 2 daughters were the 3 bears and Dad was Goldie which was...interesting.  We had Sonny and Cher.  We had a Lager/Logger and a Cougar animal/40 year old prowler, both double entendre'd.  We had 2 Princess Leia's and 2 Yoda's-one father/son and one mother/daughter team.  We had a drop-dead gorgeous flapper with an authentic dress, her hubby a cowpoke.  There were a handful of cowboys, gypsies, witches.  Then, of course, our costumes.

C, the dreamer, wanted to be "The Ocean" this year.  He is a water child;  unfortunately we live in the desert.  But he manages it fine between the bathtub, pools and an occasional hot tub, and, amazingly, doesn't mind getting pummeled by waves any time we make it to the ocean (which is every chance we get).  He used to dress up anytime and all of the time, an activity that has sadly faded some in the past 6 months as he comes more into his body, more into this world and more into reality.  I mean a character would occupy his soul and he would create an amazing and accurate look with a sarong.  He would dress up as Robin Hood, Peter Pan, an Indian (I know, so un-PC), Jesus, a Masai warrior, a beggar, a pirate, and animals of all kinds, among other things.  Being in an imaginary world was ALL he would do.  Given his costume proclivity, I advised him that a decision on Halloween needed to be made by the beginning of October so that we would have time to make it.  This, to the right, was his vision.  And the hat is a wave...sometimes a tsunami.  I love the fact that it's abstract;  the other thing he was considering was being a mountain.    He was thinking of big-ness.  It was fun to find the little jewels to put onto this creation, and to have him draw a picture of his vision and then try to make it come to life...sort of our own little Project Runway.  He found the fabric and we bought a couple of "toobs" of sea animals which, along with copious tiny and a couple of larger shells from the craft store, were attached with a hot glue gun, my new favorite thing in life.  We painted some fabric glue on the bottom and sprinkled sand from our play box on the bottom of the cape to create the sea bed, and we had ourselves an ocean. 

Last year he was a nature spirit.  We (meaning Grandma) sewed a cape-like gown and put lots of nature-y things on it, such as leaves, feathers and flowers.  We went to town with a hat and staff.  The truth is that I'd have done none of it if it weren't for his wanting to do it, and my wanting to see what we could do.  I want him and my younger boys to truly believe that anything is indeed possible, that you can make your dreams come to fruition.  And I want them to feel supported, acknowledged, listened to.  Before these last two years his costumes were much more standard fare--a pirate, a lion.  But when he said "Nature Spirit,"  I thought "And So It Shall Be."  And, of course, I love a challenge.

In some years past we've done a family theme just because it's fun and funny and cute.  S, the middle one, wasn't interested in being anything related to his brother, in spite of so many cool things from the ocean--he wanted to do his own thing.  His preschool class is called the Gnomes and he loves it.  So, being that he is so very gnome-like, I thought he and my baby would look ridiculously cute as gnomes, and he went for it.  My husband has a vast knowledge and love for fungi and we often go a-huntin' for mushrooms.  I made a hat to look like the cap of an Amanita muscaria, and my body the white stem, and we were off.  Hubby, a magical wizard, and it was complete.  What was extra nice about this, is that it gave me the opportunity to connect in a direct and very special way with my middle son.  He is the one I worry about most and hope that I make enough effort to let him know how loved he is.  I fear him getting lost as a middle child, and have had nightmares about him literally getting lost-in the woods, in rivers.  The fact that we had costumes that went together like peas and carrots, like PB & J, like gnomes and toadstools...well, that was extra special.   We got to be special buddies and I got to honor both C and S in very different and very gratifying ways.

After a bit of trick or treating, back home we went and welcomed our treasured circle of friends in.  I think that it being on a Saturday helped  a lot as there was some down time for the kids, and time for us parents to get things ready.  I was able to take time during the party to listen to my kids, to do crafts with our smaller guests, to visit, mingle and be present.  It was good.  We had enough of everything--food, drink, merriment, people and time.  And the fact that the 'fall back' Daylight Savings change happened that night gave me a whole extra hour to clean up the next day!  That and think about next Halloween.  And for it all, I am so, so very thankful.

Jack O'Lantern, such a pretty sight.

I think I've partially discovered why Halloween is so appealing to me.  In thinking about the true meaning of the holiday, I have researched the origins of Halloween and Jack O'lanterns.  Well, it all makes sense on a molecular level now, as the origins of it all are completely Celtic...as are mine.  I sort of knew that--all of that druidy stuff-- but not entirely.  The carving of gourds and other vegetables are more new worldly, as are gourds and most other vegetables of any worth, unless you're a big turnip fan.  The term, however, of "Jack O'lantern" is tied to a Celtic folk tale of an alternately wise and foolish, fastidious and lazy lad, Jack, who invariably but in unclear ways traps the devil.  When he eventually dies a natural and old-aged death, he ain't going to heaven (for he's made deals with Satan) and has been banished from Hell for his previous trapping shenanigans.  The devil tosses him an ember, and old lazy/shrewd/clever Jack carves out a lantern from a turnip and puts the ember there and sets about to wander for a restless eternity.

Halloween itself is believed to be the Celtic New Year, the end of summer (Samhain) being a more important time for collecting the last remnants of the harvest, counting the bones, preparing for a dismal winter.  It's not well separated from the Festival of the Dead, a time when the borderlands between the living and dead are quite thin and can be breached.  People dressed as spirits to either attract or repel them, depending on your position.  In a mysterious world these rituals surely proved some large measure of comfort.

Pumpkin carving is one of my favorite family Halloween activities, save for the scooping out of the slimy and stringy innards.  C began carving his own last year when he was 6.  I was definitely nervous letting him wield a knife.  Actually, last year I told him he could carve his own with the intent of a group/supervised activity and the nearly exclusive use of the little "child-safe" saws that come in carving kits.   As I was doing some preparations he went into the kitchen on his own and fetched a large knife and the next thing I knew he was going at it.  I suppose that might prompt some to call child protective services...but he actually did quite well with it.  He carved a simple face, seen here:

Really simple--one eye and one very large mouth.  But he did it, including the top opening and the guts.  He did his own again this year and carved a bird on a post that's in the shape of a C, and a witch seen here on the right.  That's a sizeable improvement in a year.  And that's another lovely and beautiful thing about a family tradition, is seeing the growth and development in your child from one pumpkin to the next.  S, the 4 year old, had very definite ideas about how he wanted his face to look just slightly scary, but not too scary, and sort of ghosty-gobbliny-like.  It's amazing how the degree of sharpness on the teeth convey a precise measure of sinisterness.  Seamus completely supervised his father in the carving of this joyful but slightly eerie masterpiece:

earnest eyes, raised eyebrows, round nose, massive smile, and the creepy part--sharp teeth.






On behalf of the baby, F, I spent an inordinate amount of time carving out intricate letters in the Curlz MT font along with a shaved out goblin face in relief.  I thought that the template picture was cute and it looked a little challenging.  Thank goodness we'd ordered a pizza for our Friday night activity.  Two hours and multiple dirtied implements later, we had this gem:

Seeds now separated and drying, most of the waxy goo peeled off of my hands, I'm ready for bed.  The boys are now asking for pies and the like from the pumpkins, though as C told me, he doesn't even like pumpkin pie.  I must confess it's not my favorite either.  I am hoping the Jack-O's just get covered by snow and forgotten/composted until next spring...not a bad resting place for the weary little lad.

Haunted Gingerbread House

Have you ever tried to make gingerbread? It is actually interesting and fun--if you are a baker type of person. I have tried various recipes and finally found one with the secret trick to make it relatively moist and pliable (though it still bakes up like a brick...thus making it suitable building material). It's melted shortening...which is sort of gross. But it does the trick beautifully, and moisturizes your hands while you roll and cut (wink, wink). When I've made it before without the grease, it is so dry it's not workable. I'm sure the dessication issue is in no small part due to the fact that we live in the high desert at 8200 feet elevation, which makes baking anything a challenge. But I love a challenge. Most cookies and un-leavened items may only require a bit more of whatever wet ingredient seems logical. Cakes and the like require advanced math to figure out adjustments, or use of the lovely Pie in the Sky cookbook (by Susan G. Purdy), which figures it all out for you and includes charts with every recipe for varying elevations up to 10,000 feet.

Part of the fun of holidays and home made is the opportunity to establish family traditions; it gives children predictability and anticipation, a yearly rhythm. Haunted gingerbread houses are a blast to make whether you tackle making the gingerbread yourself or buy a pre-made kit. My children look forward to this decadently fun activity every year, as of course, they partake in the decorator's dividend. I did the foundation work and C and S (ages 7 and 4) did nearly all of the decoration. S, who loves to be in the kitchen, helped with the gingerbread; after it cooled I glued the form of the house together and let it dry. I was able to use the extra gingerbread dough for both cutout extras (leaves, tombstones) and free form decor (ghosts and little ginger boys). I bought one bag of candy that had the pumpkins and candy corn, and then a few sprinkly type items for decoration. A little frosting/glue...and viola! We made a scene this year on a cake board and added landscaping. The trees are paper bags that were filled with sand and pebbles and twisted to make the trunk (you can use a bottle to make the correct trunk shape then remove and put in something weighty), then strips of the bag were cut and twisted for a creepy, bare deciduous tree. Salt dough ghosts were made with faces a la Sharpie; basically use a home made play dough recipe, mold into ghost shape with your little ones, and bake in the microwave for 30 seconds at a time until firm. A few collected golden/red aspen leaves for ambiance, and off we go! We made this a week ago or so, and the fence just keeps disappearing, corn by corn.

Here is last year's version--made with an all-inclusive kit (I had an infant at the time so went for major convenience).
A fun way to work up to the holiday--enjoy!

Gingerbread Recipe (enough for 1 house + a few acoutrement):
2 1/2 c flour
1/2 c sugar
1 1/2 t powdered ginger
1/2 t baking soda
1/2 t nutmeg
1/2 t salt
1/2 c solid white vegetable shortening
1/2 c unsulphured molasses

Melt shortening in saucepan. Add sugar and molasses and mix well. Make sure the sugar is fully dissolved (this will take a while). Sift the flour, baking soda, nutmeg, salt and ginger together in a mixing bowl. Gradually stir the dry ingredients into the melted shortening mixture. Mix thoroughly. Shape into a ball. Roll the dough ball into a rectangle 1/4 " thick to cut cookies (you can roll directly onto the cookie sheet so you don't have to transfer the cutouts which can be large--a damp towel under the sheet will keep it from sliding). Bake on an ungreased cookie sheet in oven preheated to 375 deg F. for 13-15 min or until lightly browned.

Halloween...spooky...scary...terrifying?

I love Halloween...I mean really love it: the food, the dressing up, the drama, the opportunity for craftiness of all kinds. And I've been thinking a lot about why...what does it mean? It is so apropos to the changing of the season, the approaching winter and darkness. It is a time to put on our masks and be brave, face demons, that may or may not be real. For children it is a time to test out different selves and an opportunity to be brave in the face of fear. It is a safe fear. Or at least it should be. It ought to be just a bit thrilling, with the promise of a reward for bravery (the candy, of course). Like so many of our holidays I feel that the true meaning has been lost in the commercialization. Buying the pre-made costume, the perfect replica outfit, the mass quantities of candy. Remember when it was truly home made? When you came up with something funny out of your closet? When perhaps your mom sewed something special? When you had the idea instead of perusing a catalog for an idea?

Our lovely little school respectfully requests that the children wear no masks, show no gore, and use home made costumes. It has taken the focus off of the terror and put it on the bravery aspect, the creativity aspect. They've also taken away the sugar focus and massive accumulation of loot and put the spotlight on little treats, the lovely little home made kinds, even the non-edible kinds. Don't get me wrong, I love me a Reese's now and again, but who doesn't love a caramel apple or a baked goody? So much more delicious and probably healthier, and made with loving hands. That kind of treat you can no longer give out because of the sicko who put razorblades into apples a while back. Children get their loot X-RAYED. It's so sad and so pathetic. We live in a place that is rural and not conducive to the usual trick or treating. I'm not even sure what folks in the 'big city' do for trick or treating these days--do you trust your neighbors, to what extent, how far? Thankfully our little town has a tradition of trick or treating on the plaza and most all of the merchants participate by doling out loot. But as darkness approaches, the age and gore index at the plaza increase exponentially. So we've been throwing an after party for a few years for the little ones to gather and spook each other with some thrilling measure of safety.

We make a little haunted house...well, really a closet. As my eldest gets older and into a more sophisticated phase of spookiness I am trying to walk a tightrope of thrill without terror. It is far, far too easy to find the terror. A walk down the well-stocked Halloween aisles of the local Wal-Mart is fairly terrifying. The grim reaper costumes, blood-laden masks and various implements of terror abound. I don't take my kids down those rows, for multiple reasons. But as I look at the horrific costumes for children I am deeply saddened. I cannot believe that the desensitization to violent images is healthy for a developing psyche. It is impossible to watch prime time television without being assaulted by commercials for violent television shows or films (CSI, Saw VI). A little green goblin-okay. A spooky ghost-cool. A little witch-fun and cute. Jason with the hockey mask--why? And don't even get me started on the prosti-tot costumes they put out for girls. Does a bee have to be sexy?

C wants to be "The Ocean" for Halloween. I just love it-he came up with it, and had a vision of what it should look like. We went to Hobby Lobby in the big city and got all of the stuff to make it. He picked out the fabric, some shells, some little critters and with the help of Grandma the master seamstress, we indeed, made the ocean. And a hat with a big wave. I'll post a picture if I can figure out how. But the process was a blast. We decorated it together. And I'm sure he will move around in that costume is if he is actually a large body of water. Last year he was a nature spirit and occupied the role completely.

The little ones, ages 4 and 19 months are going to be gnomes, daddy a wise wizard and I a large magical mushroom. We will be at school on the Friday before Halloween creating a fun, ever so slightly mysterious place for the children to explore another self, to be brave in the face of fear, and to receive rewards for their cleverness. I am putting together our little haunted closet as we speak, walking the line between spooky and scary and terrifying. I can't wait to see how it all plays out.